Did you ever had a girl crush? A serious one, when you don't know what the hell is going on? This is my story.
This is a story of a girl I met in Camden town when I lived in the City - London town. I was standing in line to get my doze of coffee at this Italian stand, full with home goodies and morning food (as food that wake the crap out of you). Still a little bit hammered from last night (and what a night?!), I looked up and sow this cute, tall girl beside me, waiting for her coffee too. Very detective like, I took my glasses off jut a little bit so I can see her eyes and of course compare if she was more ''after-party face'' than myself. Slowly I turned around towards her and at that exact moment she did too. We look at each other, smile and gazed away. I looked the other way and, I don't know why, felt that my face became red. I thought, wtf is happening to me - yesterday was a fucking good party if this things are happening to me the morning after.
Looked at my phone to see if my girlfriend is already somewhere near, but no calls or texts. Turned around to see if the girl was still there - she left.
As I walked down the Camden bridge, It got me thinking - why I was so impressed by that girl. You know that moment, when you see someone and really look at them and think ''Do I know you from some where? Did we met by any chance or I just knew you in my past life?'' My dear friend, whose name I will not say, would ask herself/himself ''Did I fuck you in this life or before?''
Ok, so I had my coffee, my sweets, a ''kitty cat'' in my head and my cigarettes. It was Sunday - chill day. You should never work on Sundays, you should always enjoy the day of rest and really rest your body and your soul (Ok, I feel a little bit of a life-speaker today).
As I sat down on a free ''scooter'' right next to the river and put my headphones on, I felt a hand on my shoulder. Thought it was my friend, which I was waiting for almost an hour, turned around and yelled ''You little fucker, where the f..'' and before I finished the line, I realize that it wasn't her, but she. The girl from the Italian stand.
I was shocked but stoked at the same time. Why was this girl constantly on my mind since the moment we crossed eyes and why I have this mixed feelings about her. So I stood there, saying nothing and just looked at her. She was smiling at my angry reaction and start talking how cute I look when I'm angry and that she had to find me after we met crossed eyes before. I was still speechless.
Her skin was chocolate brown, the Milka kind of chocolate, she had curly long hair, green eyes and full lips. Her body was shape like a well-made vase and her clothes fit her perfectly. White T-shirt and jeans shorts, simple as that. In one hand she had some old books from the fair (one of them was Stephen Kings - bingo!), her backpack was full with something and her other hand was holding a mini plastic skate. She was perfection and for the first time in my life I can say I had a girl crush. Serious girl crush.
After a while I start talking and we walked by the river to find a place to sit and ''Sunday chill''. Minutes, hours flew by and before I knew it was dark. We moved to a pub where we continue to talk, talk, talk, talk and .. well yeah, we flirted. A lot. What can I say, it felt so natural. In my mind there was only one thing ''should I kiss her or not? Is she into me or is just all in my head?''
The next thing, her lips were on mine. Soft, big and sweet. Her tongue touched mine and I felt something down there. I was turned on. Our looks found each other and we both had the same thing on our minds. She said the magic words ''lets get out of here''. I couldn't agree more.
to be continued..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0AH6O8UGwQs
Life of a crazy, lost wannabe actress
ponedeljek, 15. december 2014
nedelja, 9. september 2012
Are we just in love with love?
Ok, its been a looooong time since the last one. Its also true that the last one was my last blog in London town.
After a weekend of workin' and watching a good old marathon of Sex in the city, it crossed my mind: why women wants to be in love so much, why are we always lookin' for a guy? Why dont we just let go and have as much SAFE sex as we want?
When we are single, we are always on the pray for ''young meat'' but when we get one and a year passes, we get bored and we moan to our single friends how we miss the excitement of flirting and having random sex with random people. Cmon, you know its true.
Yes, the first couple of months are amazing and you can feel the love all over the place. But we all know that after a while things are ''normal'' and by normal I mean the passion slowly says 'cya' - and that's how cheating was invented (my opinion!).
Yes, the first couple of months are amazing and you can feel the love all over the place. But we all know that after a while things are ''normal'' and by normal I mean the passion slowly says 'cya' - and that's how cheating was invented (my opinion!).
Relationships should be fun,hot,passionate,with arguments,wild ''lets make up''sex, lunches, trips, music, letters... Whatever! Please guys and girls of our generation, make your life original, special, FUN, meaningful..
That's why I'm single (I think).. still waiting for my Jane Austin type of falling in love (with a happy ending of course), my Sabrina moment -singing la vie en rose and my lover driving me home from the theatre, my Meg Ryan moment in the park when I realize that the man with the dog, which was my enemy over a library for a while, is also the man I love.
The click, you know about the click - when you just connect and something in your head goes ''ok, something just happened here and your heart is going off the hook right now for some reason''. LOOK FOR THAT! A feeling that is so amazing and so cruel at the same time. But if worth the risk!
Until that moment (the love movie moment), Im living my life as my gut feeling says, do it or not, black or white, spicy or sweet,..
We need more action in our life! Dont you think?
Well thats for tonight and in words of Samantha Jones;
"Women are for friendships, men for fucking''
take it as you want....
torek, 8. maj 2012
Soul of a woman
Who doesn’t know about Ella Fitzgerald, Etta
James, Billie Holiday and many more soul ladies that made music sounds like a
journey of everything a woman can feel. A journey of passion, love, hate (you know the ''man hate and they are all the same'' hate), fashion, disappointment, sorrow, tears, laughter, amazing nights,...
Every woman can find herself in their songs
and to tell you the truth that’s how I empower myself every time I think love
is not for me (little joke there). Songs that just cannot bring you down
but tells you the truth and that really touches your strong woman heart. How a woman really feels about her man, how she does
when she’s mad or when she just don’t want to hear about it.
Ella is on of my inspiration, just listening to
her great performance of One note Samba from 1969, WHAT ABOUT THAT?! That’s
what I call a talent, a voice, an entertainer, a charisma, a legend of jazz
music. And then she says ‘’that’s all folks!’’ AMAZING, just AMAZING! What I
like about Ella is that her voice is fabulous and right in any song she's singing, even Mas que nada – the way she sang it, no words for that!
And singers in that time had so much class
and confidence, every man was falling for them and every lady wanted to be them. Those for me are the real divas of the
music. Divas that thought us to be a lady, to respect yourself and to look our for them bitches (of course in a nicer, more elegant way).
People should stop for a minute, put some good old jazz on and relax
after a long day, maybe even swing a little bit with somebody. In this world
where everybody is rushing thru life and not enjoying it, music is always the
best way out. After a long day at work, University, school, whatever.. Jazz
music, a glass of wine and a sofa (plus if you have somebody you like/love with
u enjoying the moment-EVEN BETTER!)
Today I leave you with this classic,
Summertime by the great Ella
''Jazz washes away the dust of everyday life.'' - Art Blakey
četrtek, 26. april 2012
Seeing or dating? That is the question!
Yes people, I’m going to do one on
relationships but not the Oprah or Ricki Lake way, let’s talk simple and just
explain what is seeing someone, dating someone, being exclusive with someone,
etc. Oh yeah, and why did I come up with this topic for my second one.
Well, last Saturday I spend the entire day
watching football with the guys. Imagine - one girl and 9 guys, you think Omg she's a lucky one! Amm not really (just joking guys, you are all really ‘nice’). But
a funny thing happened which to tell you the truth I would never expect from a
group of guys; they started to talk about what’s the difference between seeing
somebody or dating somebody. Until then I thought only girls have this kind of
conversations - well no.
My definition of the two things is:
1. Seeing somebody; you like this
person, you go out with him/her, you like to hang out with this person but you don’t
really want to commit or be exclusive about the whole thing. On the other hand
that doesn’t mean you can sleep around with everybody that comes on your way –
SAFETY FIRST KIDS!
2. Dating somebody; so you
finished the first part which is seeing with him/her and now you want to evolve
and take the next step but still is not yet ‘’boyfriend-girlfriend’’ type of
thing so a big shout out to the people that like to rush things – TAKE IT SLOW! Really
get to know the person in front of you, trust me, been there-done that! I always say, if it’s meant to be, it’s meant
to be.
This is my humble opinion and I admit, I go
by my rules.. Yes, I have rules and I know in love there are no rules, but
before the love and everything else, there are rules. Everybody has a rule or 2
for dating, don’t you?
Ok, if it’s love at first sight-well you
can’t help that! God bless you lucky muddafuckers! (in a nice way said).
But
if you like somebody, go on with a 5-date rule; 5 different places, 5 different
dates, 5 different scenarios and I have to say to all my girls, let the man sweat
a little bit. I’m of an opinion that a gentleman always gets 10points extra. Open the door for a lady or maybe the cliché trick of the ‘’chair’’ in the
restaurant is still in fashion and trust me, every woman on earth is going to appreciate
that and maybe give you her number!
Give dates a twist, it’s not always just the old fashion drinks and dinner. Take her to an amusement park or a picnic in the park (if its rainy, you can always have a picnic on the floor in your living room!) BE CREATIVE, we only live once!
Give dates a twist, it’s not always just the old fashion drinks and dinner. Take her to an amusement park or a picnic in the park (if its rainy, you can always have a picnic on the floor in your living room!) BE CREATIVE, we only live once!
So for everybody; take it slow, enjoy
dating and getting to know someone, don’t rush things but wait for the right
moment because when that moment comes, is fucking AMAZING!
Song for this one: http://youtu.be/uvkgnm8jcyY
"Anything worth doing is worth doing slowly." - Mae West
ponedeljek, 23. april 2012
The opening act - music
Listening
to Ed Sheeran at the moment, which to tell you the truth I discovered a long time ago with the
song ‘’You need me, I don’t need u’’. Today, when I listen to a cover of
‘’The A team’’ made by the newcomers The Loveable Rogues (more
about them later), I realized that this little twenty year old ginger singer is
quite good!
Ed sound is
fresh, songs are real, everybody can find a little piece of them self inside these
songs. Plus is one of my top albums right now. Plus is a good ‘’therapy’’ for
these rainy days here in London.
My
name is Saraja - a wannabe actress, presenter, stylist, musician, dancer,
(pretty much everything) trying to find her career in the great London city. I
said to myself; everybody is ‘’blogging’’, why shouldn't I?
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